I never did nothing but fallin love with a man who lied to me . Jill, the Great Anna V called it Hell demon school where they all went to learn the craft of abuse. Then again, she knows that I obsess about these things. I spoke to him by email and regretted it. NPDs CANNOT BE WITHOUT NASTINESS. I knew eventually I would have to give him that internet and satellite equipment but I was going to make him wait for it. There were times when I was a bit grouchy to talk to her, or just wasnt always enamored with her. We were like best friends. What I know is that narcissism really exists on a spectrum, although its easier and useful to think of narcissism as categories of individuals. Sally, if he is truly a Narcissist, then this is indeed a hoovering attempt. Everything Im reading is exactly what has been happening in my life. ), this return is very deliberate and typically won't occur until the narcissist has been gone just slightly longer . But i am so F.. volanerble I feel i am not over him yet. Of course she was wrong, again. I wanted to be sure, he gets what I have to say. Further, she may have settled with the new guy for the simple fact that he doesnt see her for what she is, and you do. Then when she feels like it, she unblocks me. They may even have tried to use manipulative techniques to keep us in the relationship, such as threatening to hurt themselves or to hurt us. I am moving on. I am now working my way up from a breakup. When I say Im in love with you, I love having someone beautiful to wear, like a new outfit. if you imagine this group like stars in the galaxy the abusers feel like orbiting black holes I have to keep well away from them its exhausting and so I have never felt in the correct mental place to clip into my glider and take off to fly to do that you need to have your mind up there in the clouds free and clear thinking about the birds and feeling only the air you need to be free and I have not been now for more than 6 months and diminished for a year before that, So if this is anything it is an attempt to move forward and try to step further away from what happened and to be honest I really feel I need some support I feel very vulnerable and alone this whole thing has destroyed my sense of community I have no casual social contact with any of the pilots who I know talk a bit together every day I have none of that I see a small group once a week in the pub where we just talk about stuff like normal people its them who admonished me for wanting to ignore this offer and so it was this my last foothold that fell away when I asked for advice normal people simply do not understand the dynamic of NPD explaining it makes you seem like a total nutter, I know I am taking a risk I know that this is common behaviour this coming back it is destabilising a fragile but doggedly tenacious recovery but I also realise its only me who is going to recover no one is going to do it for me and so like in that quote from my book I am doing a thing and shutting my eyes in hope that it will be better somehow. He told me he shall do everything in his power to make it work. However, I cant and wont tolerate slanderous accusations, blaming and unnecessary and constant fault finding/criticism. theses narcissists are like time bomb he got your pity when the relative passed away. He kept his ex gf pining after him and would act as if i was being insecure, when really he was instigating the attention he would receive as a means to look more desirable. Im grateful I finally left and grateful I escaped relatively unscathed. I was so depressed. Reading this site has helped me get a little better handle on my feelings however. Never heard from him again. Many of us found ourselves caught in it for years. It also made me less valuable to her, I guess. I told her it is what it is I bet lots of other women on this site would say the same thing to you. Mine was a long distance relationship, and I also never met her friends, never met her kids, was also blocked from facebook, etc. everybody knows, its a psychopathic cluster,all listed disorders include the NPD and all are Antisocial. Thanks Kim, could it be because he is about to lose the family home and go bankrupt. Eventually, I started to just get a gut feeling that Ah something was forming between them. Kim, Ive been reading your emails and writings for about a year. Inside me I was slowly starting to come to terms with things and slowly starting to make attempts to fly again I am feeling stronger inside me after this period of no contact I am also honest and open about what happened and why I am not flying so I dont keep quiet about this but equally I dont make a point about talking about it with everyone around as that in itself was reflecting badly on me. When youre in a relationship with someone and think you can trust them, you might feel comfortable enough to send them nude pictures. Now, you're left feeling confused and searching for reasons as to why they changed . First thougt no dont believe it.. The lies and the illusions never stop. The person Im with is a narcissist when I dont do one little thing its all over he says hes moving out hes told me he was going to leave like 20 times but doesnt go anywhere hes 50 Im 39 . He cant put up with that. You have to ask yourself some tough questions, like what about you attracted her and why you allowed yourself to remain in the relationship for as long as you did. They lasted 5 months and yes, she ended it, smart girl!!! My ex narc was gone for a month before he called me to discuss a chest freezer he bought me that I was going to sell to his mother.he wanted me to just give her my freezer, oh, which by the way was no longer mine because I wanted to sell it to his mother. I guess Im not supposed to know what to do. And maybe he does love me, his own way; I believe he does. She brought it up, and seemed happy that she was going to be sending me half of it. Not many people know what Narcissists are. Stay strong and dont give in! Weve both defriended him on all our social networks. Trust me. I think about you all day during work and dream about you all night. Because as far as the experts are concerned; narcissists have dark personality traits, lack empathy and narcissists rarely change. I feel so much more calm and serene with him out of my life. Any thoughts? I was always the one who would make first contact. Much appreciated. So we see the damaged person still walking around cloaking their pain and we feel for them. Contrast with a recent email message I received when he found out the kids were asking me again about his behavior this summer under the influence of alcohol and prescription meds: As for your conversations with the kids, try your hardest to be an adult. I cant thank God enough for helping me find the way out of the darkness. I had been in an on and off again relationship with my Narc for 25 years and I finally broke free. I ended up in court slapped with a restraining order to shut me up. I am interested in 4) as I am not entering into any direct conversation with the narcissist on any level whatever even his offer is manifesting in my life in defencive ways so no I dont care to know what he thinks it would however be interesting if he would carry out this task how he resolves what we are to make a fresh start would be interesting for him to think about but I would not and never would read it however mindful that his words would be like poison and reading them akin to that sushi made from poisonous fish. He tried denying it, but I think what I said hit home and he has tried to make subtle changes in my absence. Johns eloquence at the end is poetically breathtaking too. I was convinced that walking away would somehow make her the winner (we were like rivals at one point). You should text or call him once you have a good reason to do it. I hope. Your the Controlling, Manipulative , Abusive One. When I rebuked him and told him his gf wouldnt like that then he said they werent sexual. The fact that she told me what a nice guy this person is makes me wonder why he has not been used up as well. I found him again on dating websites, 3 profiles on POF different ages, different names. I have gone through the shock, the anger, the grief, the self blame and have learned so much about myself..my strength and resilience, and ability to love. He has to live with this 24/7 negativity in his life. You are such an AMAZING friend. Then, a few short weeks later after asking her in a gentle manner where she has been and when is she going to be sending out my money, she blocks me from Facebook and cuts me out of her life yet againsigh. But it has to. Let your integrity speak for itself! He is just an empty shell. And I really think he may be a narc. So NC is the only way for me, or I end up mourning and missing him..and frankly after the things hes said and done he doesnt deserve access to me. Thing is my ex was meant to be picking kids up and the end of our street but hes been pulling up outside our home for them and when he does he says things like whats for tea, you want me to come back over tonight dont you , smile Im only joking hell say. They worked together, worked out together text upon waking and until it was time for bed. The torment they endure from narcassism couples with the strength of a very patriarchal religion, you have no idea! I love not being that tree falling in the forest. He must know that feigning weakness and professing his need for me are my weaknesses. Now looking at the ease with which its all gone away such a simple interaction do you want a fresh start yes ok lets not talk about the past good idea. May God help and heal us all. He has never been violent, only emotionally and psychologically abusive. He never got how unwarranted Silent treatments are controlling and disrespectful. Walk away. So you have the option of reaching out to your ex without it causing damage. Im not talking to him, never begged him but it almost killed me. Goodbye and all the best. Im so sorry to say this to u because I know how u feel. Here are some of the statements you can expect your narcissist ex to make: The narcissist knows full well theyre crazy, and if you left, they know that you know. He wants nothing to do with me now. Wow. Now that you know what he is and you exposed him, he will do everything possible to make you look like you are the crazy one because he fears you because you know the truth about him. It was one date and done, but I occasionally every blue moon thought of her and how she was doing these days. Be strong and do not let anyone undermine or control you. Even after he blew up and sent me 20 emails in a 10 hour period over the summer blasting my character and career failures, threatening me, he STILL had the gall to behave self righteously when I asked for no contact. My heart is holding on for dear life, even tho I dont want to! Not only were they kind, caring, giving, and compassionate, but they gave you the best sex of your life. Get any documentation together that you can that might prove your Ex isnt fit to be your childs primary custodian,which might include any threatening texts and emails, any charges he may have against him for abuse, drugs, or alcohol. He lies and lies and covers with excuses and tries to deflect blame. His mask falls so quick when he cant get what he wants. Unlike other cases Ive seen, he never begged after that. I love seeing myself through your eyes. I now focus on my recovery, and helping others. Then later that day I was heading home from the beach with my bike. They will even compare the level of supply they get from different partners. Their partner saw past the mask, realized they were flawed and left. Some days i feel better and laughing again. But maybe he just forgatten me. Hi Carole. 2 years into the relationship I found on facebook that he had moved in with one of the women on the telephone bill. I will NEVER give him the opportunity to jam me up again by his manipulative lies. Narcissists live in denial of who they really are. So theyll get in there first. His kids are apparently very well behaved, and maybe he deals with her much like he does his kids. Suddenly, all his love for me was gone and he couldnt trust me anymore (which was a joke since he never trusted me even though I never did anything to this man but Narcs never trust anyone because they project themselves onto everyone and know that they are not trustworthy). It is sad because you love her unconditionally. He remembers everything I say and twists and turns it intoto something awful he can verbally abuse me with. Interesting. But that is better than being an emotional wreck every day like I was in the beginning. This would make it easier for you to move on. But I know now. I hope to share my story one day.. Keep up the good work! He wouldnt say it, I would just read that because that is what hes saying. If you get suspicious, they may cut off that contact again, at least temporarily. My narcissist ex hasn't contacted me in 109 days. But know in my mind rationaly that is not good, I dont have to need his approval that i am ok. Never happy, always thinking of nobody else but themselves. But i wont bite the apple again. Mine too he literally dumped me off at a new townhouse with our daughter and said goodbye! Thanks to you and Rodman. 3. study your exes more closely. Being the victim of narsasistic abuse is very tough. But think i have to be hounest to help other codependend. So in a way I am kind of left alone in an empty room I remember some of the noise and commotion from the days and years before but the source of my desire to fly has been severely hurt by its association with the years of abuse has been polluted by it almost as if the whole thing has been ossified in the negative energy that this person focused on me its depressing. Eden, the nerve they have popping in and out and around our lives like nothing is soooo unsettling and weird to the norm, but he is not normal so he would probably in his mind (which we know does not function properly) feel it is ok. That is what sets us apart from them. I just hope this doesnt turn out to me a disaster. []. Thanks Kimberly! Accepting him as a friend too soon confused me about my new relationship and caused me angst. I have taken myself out of the triangle and am allowing them to self destruct. I know that many a guy has fallen for her, so i am not the only one. If he is a true Narcissist (without empathy) then there is no sense getting back in touch with him. Theyre incredibly giving and very forgiving. When it comes to the ex-partners of a narcissist, they fall into two categories. And each time he shows you just how dysfunctional he is, cementing your decision to leave him alone. We separated in August 2012 four days after our daughters 7th birthday after him striking me so hard I thought hed broken my jaw/cheekbone. Her mum and split when her mum had an affair and left. That comment really rubs me the wrong way. When the narcissist eventually comes back, theres plenty of supply waiting to be imparted. I questioned and disliked the attention seeking but was educated to my insane jealousy. She is right! 2. Broken. They may hoover, but thats another story. Not this time. I so desperately needed this. So how do you explain to the ones that you love that they the have no future because of a mental disorder starting grade one that was not recognised until a year ago? From that point on things seemed to degrade (i.e. Then new girl says I dont know him, he is happy now and she thinks she knows him better after 3 months than i did for 20 years. Part 1 and Part 2 are equally important to read. Best of luck in your recovery and with maintaining No Contact. I had full custody of my children.I couldnt recover from the damages. Perhaps hate was too strong a word but even after going through hell with him and seeing who he really is, I cant understand why I still think of him. Youve left some very useful advice here. I really dont want to.. Its like tempation. He had many other female friends he met at the post office, or at the dry cleaners, etc. Third, the lack of control over what the narcissist can do may cause us to feel insecure about our own actions. First, I had the internet shut off in his name and re-opened in my name a month ago; second, he should have shut the cable off when he left but he has left it on. What a reward, huh? Anupturnedsoul opened my eyes to something I didnt know. This means that 4-5 people out of 100 you know are these creatures!! There was never any financial links/obligations between us. [] N will come back again and againafter initiating their silent treatment until you just cut them off. what if one day she will come forward and say.. Congrats on ur joirney to recovery, Your email address will not be published. Its who they are and they dont change. He was livid and proceeded to tell me he was done, thats it etc. Because he knows i hate fighting and wants to solve everything. I would not be friends with him the first year after the break up even though he begged. Like my father was. I, too, wish there were more male posters. My ex really really did try harder with me and I know this for a fact but it was always precipitated by me dumping him. I need to find some time and write down all the good things I got from her and all the bad things and compare and always look at itthat would be on my agenda. Even if she loses and never pays me a dime, I need to move forward with the lawsuit if for no other reason than to regain my self respect and get my family jewels back. Anyways random motifs I noticed between FREEATLASTS note and this one: excessively wordy When the next argument arises and it will, you will be devalued and discarded and its all your fault. She looks beautiful and I lost that or I dont even know if he really *saw* me, as in the way I looked, like maybe he noticed those passion marks and now he know Im no longer sitting around crying like he *thought* I might be, still brokenhearted. good bye. The love letter is so true thanjs for writing it up plainly. That would suck. We got back together and she told me it was over with the other guy because he had a temper and used drugs. See the end of this post for information about how to read a free previewof my book, which including the first chapter and the pathological love relationship checklist. Wow, yea, this describes & matches the way he was/is to a tee Its so Fd up. Cara, Im sorry for all the sorrow youve experienced. Happy with girlfriend, but thinks you guys should be friends Translation: Somethings not on the up and up and/or he has discovered some way that getting back in touch with you will benefit him. I have an IQ of 150, have never done drugs in my life (not even pot) and do not have any mental disorders. Yet, at least both parties generally have an agreed-upon narrative about what happened. Where do i stand when i let him still in my heart and in my life? Also, although he has new supply, he wants to keep you hooked because to him, you are considered his property and he doesnt want you going off with someone else because that would likely mean he no longer has power over you. He needs to be seen as perfect a all times. He then dragged me by the hair of my head out of our home and locked me out. It could go either wayeither he wants you as supply, or he wants revenge and is preparing for a painful and harrowing discard. We constantly re-work our definition of what a relationship really is as they drift in and out, all around us, ghost-like. We should have a LAT relation. You cant control the narcissist or know what he or she is thinking. I used this image through my account with Adobe Stock, which is a service I pay for on a monthly basis and which gives me license to use the image. He can shut the cable off and when Im ready, Ill set the boxes in a garbage bag and sit it near my mailbox on the road but he wont have the luxury of seeing me at any time if I can help it at my door. Thanks a lot! I could, I miss you terribly . Couples would be present, but still no invitation came my way. But as was the case with you, and all the partners they had before you, the new supply will eventually be devalued and discarded, too. Theres a reason here that may not be obvious, but its not due to a sudden change of heart. I guess Im just struggling with all the emotions related to the situation more than anything. As far as I know she is still with the new BF who she has now been with for going on one year. Your appeal is that you loved him as much as he loved himself and that's the only real thing you had in common. A Punishable Offence, probably none of us were aware of with a Life Sentence !!.. He was an attentive, passionate lover. 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